life's evil.
it forces us to feel good about ourselves.
make us think we accomplished something.
and then as soon as you blink.
it's all gone.

i'm tired of seeing everything i have,
that i want,
that i need,
...that i love...
disappear.
because i blinked.

i havn't blinked in a long time.
i'm scared i'm going to lose everything again.

my eyes hurt.

i think i'll give up...

just lay down...

think about all the happy times i had...

and all the happy times i'm about to lose...

and just...

sleep.